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Sunday, June 1, 2014

Honesty Tell Me...

Heartbreaking Confession

Here I am
Lying here on bed
Pretending where you came
Keeps haunting me over my head

Waiting...well, its hurt
You never care
Close my mouth
With my chestnut brown hair

No text, no call
Its nothing at all
Empty, yeah...its empty
Until I call and pray to God Almighty

I was a doll all this time?
After you take what is 'MINE'
It bleeds and I'm wreck...
Its gone forever and made me hates

Liar... is that what type of you?
After all I've been through
Disappointed...uuhh..what kind of human are you!!!
And this scar and wound become really huge

Wrong.. Yes, I was
Stupid... thats me...all this time
Hurt... I'm tearing ever so much
Trust... BREAKS
You... I wish I never knew

Sunday, December 1, 2013

What Hurt The Most

Tribute to the end of October

What hurt the most
When I ignoring you
Pretend that I don't care
When you actually do

What hurt the most
That I forget you
You called
But I never knew

What hurt the most
When I reject to go out with you
I still out of line
Didn't realize that you are the one

What hurt the most
When the first time I met you
The first time I fall in crush with you
And then I realize

What hurt the most
Is when I trying to be like before
To obey you, to be there for you
But guess it won't be the same

What hurt the most
When I really fall in love with you
Waiting for you
Waiting for that something

What hurt the most
I realize that I can't live without you
Realize that I should appreciate you
The one that gifted from God

What hurt the most
That I can't take it anymore
Crying waiting for that words
But I didn't realize those action of yours

What hurt the most
That I was stupid
Waiting for the words
But the truth is already shown by your action

What hurt the most
That I really willing to wait
To know the truth
And I won't give up

What hurt the most
I am so into you
Waiting for you
Coz I wanting you

What hurt the most
When I want you to be there
To see your charming eyes
Looking into mine

What hurt the most
When I want to cry in front of you
To tell you that
I'm tired.... and

I hurt because I want to be yours...

Thursday, June 20, 2013

"Precious" Pills Poem ***


Silence was nothing at all
After denying all those things
Was not worth it all
Hopeless and leads to the red eyes

This is tough
Yeah, it hurts
I want it to fade
So I will do it without any word

I wish there will be no more screams
No more curse
No more cry
Or even heartache

I can say, I can't throw you
You lead me to the long dream
And won't make me feel anything
If I'm awake, that's a miracle

It won't made me bleeds
or hurt and even scratch a lil bit
I can say, its just like going to sleep
But the difference is, there will be no more tears






Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Tribute to #520136 #ShortPoem

I started it
But I realize there was no response
You, you know what this feeling was?
Do you ever feel the same?
You never knew

Short conversation
But still makes me smile
Why are you so cold
You never realize don't you

It doesn't came true at all
Smile, that's makes me happy
Though I lied
Because I'm desperately hurt from the inside
Goodbye ~




Friday, May 24, 2013

Reviewing 13523 Tribute to *Selfish Boy



You've been missing something
The inside of you was really something wrong
You are not the real you
Not what I want
It just so different
Perfectly different

As I waited
You came to me
With that smile and sharp eyes
The beginning was perfect
Until the error came silently

You talked like nothing
Like the world is yours
I stand still
Hard to let it go

Came into the hall
Actually, that's not what I wanted
You started the small mistake
Which I want to avoid at the first place

Little lies from the inside
Quiet happy but I almost cried
I wish this is never happened
And I already over it

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Tribute to YOU and I

Got my word
Made my promises
Remember my swear
What's in your mind?

Remember that one song?
Yeah, I guess it related
And other word accurated
Pathetically me ~

I wear black
But I love purple
My heart got smacked down
And that was OUCH.

Summer is here
I guess it is meant to be
I laugh till die
Yeah, I represent the real me.

Dear, you who lives far away from me
Gosh, this is distance
Would you come to my white house?
So I can be your BRIDE.

Look back, its all black
Coz I see no more
I move forward
With some kinda MIRACLE like YOU.

Skies getting dark
Like my brownie eyes
I burst into some kinda red tears
OUCH, I'm okay.

I'm feeling high
To be pushed off
With that nonsense words
Everytime during distance.

You right in my eyes
Smile, sigh, glares, beautiful ~
How I wish
This moment is forever.

I standing still
Waiting your long words
That meaningful to me
Yet I know, I'm not good enough.

I'm hoping and always hoping
You're the one who came with golden ring
I want that moment so bad
Being your only one beautifully pathetically BRIDE.


Wednesday, November 14, 2012

The Broken Angel (English 3 Drama)



My Officially Drama group for this semester.
Theme : Social Issues
Title : The Broken Angel (A Prostitute Story)

I never expected that we have to do a prostitution drama? How come? Here's the story.

Here I was, sleepy in the class. While Miss Patricia talk about drama for an hour.
Miss Patricia : The theme for your drama this sem is social issues. Now give me one topic about it.
Me : dlm fikiran *ahh...okay, miss. Dia cuma mta example. Just ckp vandelism, drugs. Its not a big deal.
Rita : So pa kita mw buat?
Eyjah : Pelacur la Der (Der is Rita's nickie)
Mei2 : Iya. Pelacuran larr...
Me : *uhh... Miss bru mta example. Blm mta title pn drama kita...(kuyu2 mata lg)
Miss Patricia smpai d meja kami...
M. Patrica : So? What you gonna do??
Uinahh...bulat bha mata sy trus. Xkan miss mta title dah dr kmi. Belum sempat pn sy jwp..trus c rita ne pun...
Rita : PELACURAN.
Me : *I was like...huhhh????!!! Bulat mata sy trus.
M. Patricia : Prostitution? Woahh.. Hot title arrr? I can't wait for your drama. Looking forward for it. Good luck! :D
Me : Huhh?! The heck? So kita kna berlakun jd ppeepppp...ugghhhh!
Rita : Best bha, Sha. Len dr yg len.
Eyjah : Iya! Kc mantap!
Me : =.=
Mei2 : Haha. Ne kali laa!
Me : Uugghhhh!

Guess what, memang kira nightmare btl. Trus fikir2 pa crita mw buat. But lucky, brain ne kira braniac juga. Hahaha. I provide all the summary, messages and also dialogue. And lucky dpt teammates yg ada teamwork. Semua berhasil and berjalan dgn lancar. Walaupun tak dpt full mark kmi dah sgt bersyukur coz dah buat yg terbaik. Wanna read our script? Hahaha!


Title : The Broken Angel (A Prostitute Story)
Synopsis :
A story about two well-mannered and delicated sisters, that drowns out to be wild and become prostitutes after attended their friends party in the nightclub. They didn’t realize those two popular girls in school was the part-time prostitute working in such a nightclub. Day after day, they become wild and addicted to that part-time job until one of the sisters is getting pregnant and become more depressed soon she decided to make an abortion. Her big sister didn’t let her to do it. And they decided to stop and directly go home to tell their mother. When they reached at home, their mother was still at the office. The older sister trying to make a call but it was totally useless that their mother has turn off the phone or out of battery or something. She runaway to her mother office leaving her depressing little sister alone at home. At the office after telling her mother everything, they directly went home but it was too late because the younger sister had committed to suicide. After the funeral. The elder sister promised to her mother and herself to starting a new life and never turning back again.

Messages of the story :
·         Being such a prostitute is fun, but that FUN is only for a while and only leads us to the bad thing that made ourselves life even darker.
 Our mother had raise and thought us to be good girls with good attitudes. Don’t ever ruined it.
·         You made that mistake, things won’t ever be the same. But its never too late to change and move into the right way.

At home...

Miss Eyjah is helping her daughters to prepare for school.
Miss Eyjah : There you go, my dear. You look pretty now.
Alphonia : Thanks, mom. (kisses)
Miss Eyjah : Now where’s your little sister?
Sascha : I can’t find my sweater!
Miss Eyjah : Here it is (putting the sweater on Sascha)
Sascha : Thanks, mommy (kisses and hugs)
Alphonia : We going to school now. Love you, mom!
Miss Eyjah : Goodbye, girls. Be careful.

At school...

Rita : Alphonia! Sascha! Over here...
Alphonia : Hey, whats up?
Rita : Lets continue that history project yesterday.
Alphonia : Another history. Uughh..I’m tired of it.
Sascha : I can do your part.
Alphonia : Thanks little sister. Can you do the essay too? I’m lacking of ideas.
Sascha : Sure.
Rita : You always ask Sascha to do everything...
Alphonia : She doesn’t mind at all. Is that right, sis?

Suddenly...

Kay : Hey, girls!
Petty : Gosh, Sascha! I love you shirt!
Sascha : Oh... thanks.
May : Alphonia’s hair look georgeous!
Petty : Really! Thank you! You also look beautiful today.
Rita : Ermm, Alphonia...Sascha. We are suppose to do the History project. No time for...
Petty : (Interrupt) We are just want to invite you all to our party tomorrow night. Girls party of course. It will be held at a nightclub.
Kay : Its on 7pm until 3am. We will having lots of fun. You can wear anything you want, meeting new friends also the hot guys.
Alphonia : Sounds cool! We will be there!
May : Thats, great! See you there, girls. Can’t wait to celebrate the party with you.
Kay, Petty and May walk away....

Rita : I don’t think its a very good idea, Alphonia. Even your own mother don’t want you to go to such a place.
Alphonia : Who cares! If you don’t want to go, then don’t! We’ll be there, right Sascha?
Sascha : But Rita is right. Mom will scold us if we going to the nightclub. Moreover, its not a good place either.
Alphonia : Then, we won’t tell mom about it! We just tell that we are going to a birthday party.
Rita : Now you’re planning for lying? Alphonia, we have to...
Alphonia : Enough, Rita! I want to attend the party so much. Please don’t ruin my great time with the world outside there. I also want to have fun just like everyone else.
Rita : I’m speechless, Alphonia. I thought you are my bestfriend but I was wrong. (packing the books and walk away)
Alphonia : Now,  Sascha. You come with me right. Don’t worry. Mom will never know about this. I promise. Just you and me. We will go, okay?
Sascha :  Urmm..okay.

Pub Scene
Kay : Hello, girls. We are so glad that you came!
Petty : Yeah. And both of you look gorgeous! And sexy.
Alphonia : Thanks. Hey, three of you been working in here?
Kay : Urmm...yes. Thats why we invited you to come. You going to like this job.
Sascha : Errr...what kind of job?
May : Meet our leader, Miss Marianne. She’s the leader and will explain you about our job.
Alphonia : You look so sexy and beautiful, Miss Marianne.
M.Marianne : Thanks, my dear. So do you interested for this job? You’ll gonna be lots of fun you know. Meeting new guys, get loads of money every night.
Alphonia: Money???!!! We want the job right away! (Excited)
Sascha : Sister! We don’t even know whats the job yet and you taking it already?!
Alphonia : I don’t care. Marianne and the girls says we will be so much fun and get money at the same time. We take it! And don’t you dare to refuse it! (Pointing finger on Sascha)
M.Marianne : Okay, bring the boys over here. Kay and May, please teach the sisters how to treat boys for tonight and next they will know what should they do.
Boy 1 : I take the one with the brown hair.
Boy 2 : This one looks pretty. I spend my time with her for tonight.
Boy 1 : Hey, pretty. Check in with me?
Alphonia : Sure, dear. Can’t wait. (holding the hand)
Boy 2 : I can’t wait to be your first.
Sascha : (turning her head to the othe side)

Addicted
Alphonia : So do you having a great time? How much did you get?
Sascha : Yeah, sis. I got more money and can buy anything I want.
May and Petty arrive...
May : Hey, girls.
Sascha : I change my clothes first. (walk away)
Petty : Alphonia, remember what I told you. Use protection such a condom or pills to avoid you both from getting pregnant.
Alphonia : Yeah. Don’t worry. I use it everytime.
May : Thats better. Don’t forget to remind your sister too.You know, she’s a bit different than you.
M. Marianne : Okay, girls. Get to work now.
Sascha gets back...

Alphonia and Sascha reached at home...

Miss Eyjah : Girls, I want to have a talk with you. Is that true you both been working as prostitute in the nightclub?! The whole school knows about it! Even the teachers!
Alphonia : No question ask, mom! So why if we are working  such a thing. We get more money to make our life even better also can get anything we wanted.
M. Eyjah : But you’re ruining yourselves! Look at you! This is not how I raised you both! I teach, protect and guide you to be good girls with good attitude and this is how you become?
Alphonia : Blablablabla! I don’t care, mom! Say what you want! I’m leaving the house with Sascha.
M. Eyjah try to after Alphonia and hold her hand but Alphonia push her away and fell to the floor.
Sascha : Mother!
Alphonia : Let her go, sis! We out from this house (take Sascha’s hand and walk away)

During work...
Kay : There are more customers.
May : You treat the guy over there, Alphonia.
Boy 1 : How much do you want, beautiful?
Alphonia : Wait, where’s my sister?
Boy 1 : Don’t care about her. (try to hold her hand)
Alphonia : Stop it! Where’s my sister?!
Petty, Sascha and Marianne walks in...
Petty : Alphonia, your sister didn’t look that well.
Sascha : I’m fine. Don’t worry.
Marianne : Okay. Treat him them. (Hand over Boy 2)
Boy 2 : Hey, Babe.
Sascha : I feel dizzy.
Boy 2 : What’s wrong? Don’t worry, I make you okay.
Suddenly,  Sascha go the bathroom to throw up.
Marianne : I thought so. She’s pregnant!
May : Looks like someone have to be fired.
Alphonia : Hey! Watch your mouth.
Petty : We already told you to remind her to don’t forget to use protection.
Sascha comes over with trauma voice...
Sascha : Noo!
Alphonia : Sis, what happen?
Sascha : I’m pregnant!
May : Another loser.
Kay : Well, well, well... what a worst situation. Dump her, Alphonia. She’s useless now.
Alphonia : Hey! Listen! None of us is getting dumped! But we are dumping you all out of our life! We quit!

At home...
Alphonia : Mom! We’re home! Mom! Uuhh.. I guess she still at work.
Trying to call but no answer.
Alphonia : Sascha, I’m out to mom’s office. Please don’t be like this. Take a rest.
Sascha : I’m hurt! Why it have to be like this!!!!
Alphonia : Look at me, sis! Everythings going to be fine. We just going through a tough time.
Sascha : We’re going through a tough time? We didn’t get pregnant. We are not the laughing stock of the new trier. I am! I’m the one who’s get pregnant! Not you! Nothings would ever be the same! (get away from Alphonia)
Alphonia going out looking for their mom. While Sascha found a knife then she kills herself. After Alphonia and Miss Eyjah reached home. They found a dead lying body on the floor...

M. Eyjah : Nooo!!! Sascha! Saschhaaa!!!
Alphonia : (Speechless)
M. Eyjah : Alphonia, what happened?!
Alphonia : I don’t know. She was pregnant then...
M. Eyjah : Then you leaving her alone!!!!
Alphonia : Nooo! Saschaaa! (hug over the dead body)

After Sascha’s funeral.

Rita : I’m sorry for your lost, Alphonia.
Alphonia : It was my fault.
Rita : Make it right, then.
Walk over to her mother...
Alphonia : Mom, I’m sorry....
M. Eyjah : I miss your sister, Alphonia. (crying so hard)
Alphonia : Mom, I promise. I start my new life and move on with all the things that you thought me. I will never repeat the same mistake again. I miss her. So much. I promise to you and her.(Hug her mom)

END.

Baca punya baca mesti kmu da taw watak sy kan. Hahaha! Credit utk kwn2 yg bg support sma kmi. I still remember respon kmu bila kmu taw title hot kmi kan? LOL. Actually script ne ada kna tambah2 oleh Marienne. Tapi tambah hebat maa.. hahaha. Part paling lucu time d scene yg sy pregnant. Lepas sy kna tolak oleh Kay, then Alphonia tolak balik mommy(Marienne) diorg tu. Jatuh mcm platform bha dia. Hahaha. Then yg lucu lg time funeral sy. Diorg nangis2 la smua. Skali c Aaron(Boy2/Sascha's scandal) dtg dekat sa trus nangis smbil ckp "baby! don't leave me! Baby!" skali tiba2 Eyjah(Miss Eyjah) marahh..uinah...mcm marah betul2 bhaaa. "baby? Who are you? Get out!!!!!!" trus dia tolak Aaron. Sy pn nda taw la..tahan tawa smbil trip urg mati lg. Hahaha. Thanks larr sma kmu smua. Best dpt group yg mcm kmu. Sporting, understanding and direct to the point. Love you all. Cheers.